Fifteen

I’ve been studying my waistbands

Taking out the wastecans

Checking my fly

I been living in the basement

Checking on my faceplant

While you’re telling lies

Alibis

15 candles and a big red sun

15 reasons that you couldn’t come

15 wishes and one to grow on

I got a pimple in my earlobe

Listening to Cee Lo

Getting high

My older brother is an asshole

He gives me such a hassle

Just for being my

Little size

15 candles and a big red sun

15 reasons that you couldn’t come

15 wishes and one to grow on

15 candles and a red balloon

15 reasons that you left so soon

15 excuses for being you

You….you broke my heart

You left me dry

When you said goodbye

But now I’m

Going blind

But I’ll survive

I’ll find

A better life

Hey Darlin'

Hey darlin, what you doing here tonight?

Your eyes are shining bright as the sun.

Hey baby, won’t you look at me tonight?

Wont you make me feel like

I’m the one…

There’s one life I’ve ever known

Much I’ve changed but not outgrown

I’m trying to make a go

Alone

But I can’t see without your stare

When your voice is never there

There’s a void hang in the air

At home

Hey darlin can you dance with me tonight

Let me hold you tight

In my arms

When I wake up

And I’m kicking myself

For not holding the door

When I had the chance

With this makeup

Am I fooling myself

Should have held you in my arms

When I had the chance

There’s one life I’ve ever known

Much I’ve changed but not outgrown

I’m trying to make a go

Alone

But I can’t see through blurry eyes

Can’t walk if I’m paralyzed

Useless, hypnotized and stoned

But not high

Hey darlin won’t you be with me tonight

Wont you make me feel like

I’m the one…

Bandaged Hand

I got a feelin, oh I got a feelin

I took a beating oh I took a beatin

But now, I know I need break from it now

I really need to break

I see you dealin, I know you’re cheatin

Aint got a full deck but still I see you dealing

And now

I know I need to fold what I’ve got

If I could just get

I got your heating, I know I got you heating

They turned the thermostat down to keep you breathin

But oh, I really like to hang with you oh

And I really want to hang out tonight

If I could just get it right

If I could just get it right

If I could just get it

The less I bleed the more I need it

The less I stare the more I see it

It’s like blowing out the sun with a paper fan

The less I eat the more I feed it

The less I give the more I receive it

Lessening the blow with a bandaged hand

I reached the ceiling, oh I reached it kneeling

Ain’t got a ladder but still I touch the ceiling and oh

I know you got it in for me now,

And not like in a bad way but how

If I could just get it right

I got my shit real tight

If I could just get it right

Crooked Wheel

I got a tattoo of a melody

I got the lyrics done in custody

I did some wrong

But now that’s gone

Inside my mental penitentiary

I’m just looking for a deal

And a way to make you mine

Think you better take the wheel, when you drive me

I’m no marksman but I shoot a lot

There’s not a battle that I haven’t fought

I don’t know what you took me for

But I’m never going back

Don’t let your preconception throw you off

I’m looking for a plan

And a place to park my van

Turn up the radio radio

Looking for a feel

Put the pedal to the metal

Take my crooked wheel

I lived a lifetime in a cheap motel

Underneath a portrait of a hookah shell

I carved my name

On the window pane

And sent my conscience right on back to hell

I am looking for a lake

And a place to park my brake

I leave the light on and I nurse a beer

Watch the lightning and I persevere (insincere, disappear)

There’s a nagging pain

And it feels like rain

Just keep pretending that you want me here—do ya?

I am looking for a line

And a way to call you mine

Trigger Finger

If you can make it through the flight

You just might win the fight

There’s a light on inside your head

I want to help you find your way

It’s rare I get to say

Everything’s gonna be ok

But I’m gonna pay

Every part of you is feeling like a photograph

Got that trigger finger all the time

“I’m dying here” is sure to be your epitaph

and you

you better laugh

There are worse things in the world

There might be a little girl

With a rock inside her kicks

If there’s one thing I have learned

Too much sun can burn

It ain’t nothing a that aloe can’t fix

So take your licks!

Every part of you is feeling like a photograph

Got that trigger finger all the time

“I’m dying here” is sure to be your epitaph

and you

you better laugh

Man I got your back

Keepin you on track

At least I’m trying

It’s not for a lack of tryin’

Every part of you is feeling like we’re gonna crash

Got that trigger finger all the time

“I’m dying here” is sure to be your epitaph

Honey Bee

You woke up

Even with the nightlight on

You’re seeing shadows in the break of dawn

You called out

Deep inside a dream of my own

It was a nightmare I was all alone

There was not a little ballerina

Dancing for no one

besides herself

You buzz around me like a honey bee

The world brand new awaits you wait for me…

Fill the cup

Water always does the trick

Seal the lid and let you cry with it

You grown up

I wrestle with it every day

Got to cherish every little frame

I know there was a time before you

But for the life of me I can’t recall

You bound around me always fancy free

The world brand new

Awaits you wait for me…

Ask me why

There's pain and there's lies

Don't always have the answer but I'm happy to try 

Ask me how

There's you and there's now

I'll share it with you soon as I can figure it out

Hang on my love 

Times running out

Cherish the day

that's what life is about

So ask me what

Song I should sing

Ill hum it just to hear you ask anything 

There you are

Smiling in the same old way

Cause maybe it’s your wedding day

I see it

Clear as I can see your face

There’s someone who steals your heart away

But you will always be my ballerina

Dancing like we only have ourselves

And you fly around me

Swaying next to me

The world brand new awaits you

Wait for me… Wait for me.

Angela

The night it brings a multitude of creeps and beggars and

They walk in a circle trapped in this foreign land

Waiting on something/ something real

I fly above it all, and I feel the moonlight breeze

Not even thinking why I’m flying with such ease

Angela you knew I’d come down

Grass in my teeth

Shame on me

This mortality

It seethes

Reminds me I’m not free

I dreamt I was a diver with a life supply air

I cut my teeth on coral with a deep breath and a prayer

I logged a hundred hours/ in that reef

Waves would crash above me but that didn’t bother me

But Angela I saw you and I knew I couldn’t breathe

I feel like a shell to the bottom of the sea

And woke up from my dream

Shame on me

This mortality

It seethes

Reminds you its not free

If I bleed

Will you carry me

If I need

Will you ferry me

When you said anytime did you mean anytime?

Cause this here’s my only my only dime.

I could try you later I could, oh I could try

But Angela, you set me, only you set me right

I dreamt I was a hero and all my parts were sound

No one gonna bother me, deep inside this cloud

Then I woke up from this dream

Shame on me…

Like The Heart Goes

Something so inviting

First thing in the morning

I’m as equally frightened

By the end of the day

I got sand in my pockets

It kinda weighs me down

But I’m happy and holy and  free

Smoke in my belly

A drink in my lungs

I may not be an addict but I’m turning into one

I got a voice in my pocket

It kinda weighs me down

But I’m happy and homely and free

Happy, lonely, and free

There’s just one way

I need to be

I took what you said

And I put it on its feet

If this is the day

Just let it beat, like the heart goes

Just because I’m sad

Don’t mean that I’m unhappy

Because I’m a sinner

Don’t mean ain’t a saint

So I stay under my covers

Longing for another

But I’m happy and lonely and free

Where do I count today

I’m closing it down today

Today….

The next day begins

Where the last one had ended

What do I do with a job that can’t be done

I put sand in my pockets

To kind of weigh me down

Eskimo

I once spoke up to a meter maid

She said she liked the work but not the pay

Writing tickets while you run away…Afraid

Said hey to a polar bear

Said he liked it here but not over there

That’s what its like inside a dragon’s lair

The ice is fading back

It’s like teaching architecture lecture to an Eskimo

You can show him everything you know__

He still gonna build it all out of snow

gonna take  my long division down to Mexico

I can divide …all night

Said hey to the astronaut

Said he wishes he could pick his spot

Said he likes to go out a lot

and not quite make it back

I’m gonna take my ticket and kick it down in Mexico

I’m gonna fly, all night

Been around the world, and I’ve seen

Enough to know what I mean

Got this ticking in my mind

And its about time

Set the record with Joan of Arc

She knew her destiny before the spark

She got the orders and she played her part

I’m gonna stand with my feet deeply rooted to the

Ground below

I can survive

All night…

Carpool Lane

It’s a vast change, in the carpool lane, uh-huh

A subtle lane shift, and I’m caught amidst, high speeds

The soccer moms and me

Stuck in overdrive

It’s a long ride

But I’m right by your side

No one told me, that there’d be a test, uh-huh

I never studied, but I did my best, I think

The answers were in ink

The message was inscribed

“it’s a long ride,

But I’m right by your side”

I’m right by your side

Bridge

Oh this mediocrity

Sign says got no vacancy

I know that’s just complacency

Calling me….

It’s a fine line, marking the divide, uh-huh

I could exit, ride into the empty space

But then I see your face

And now I can’t describe

It’s been a long time

And I’m right by your side

CA Nation

It’s a mystery

Dressing like a target

Splittin’ the seams

It’s Sisyphean

With my dreams in a cart

From the grocery

It sucks me like a thrill

Takes me like a pill

Climbing up this hill

California nation

Is bringing me round

One big invitation

To get off the ground

I’m a looky loo

Made it like an art form

I can see you

You’re wearing blue

I read you like a book that

I can’t get through

Hide behind the lie

Squeeze it till its dry

Singing cause  that’s how we get by

To get off the ground

Life is profound

Be who you want to be

It’s no big mystery

That we’re a bunch of freaks

Who hold out empty hands

Don’t want no sympathy, it’s our philosophy

I’m down with the verse

You living with the chorus

But it still needs work

Its paper thin

The message isn’t clever when its hidden within

Read between the lines

Hug it if it cries

Singing well  that’s how we get by

Cigarette

You smoked your last cigarette

The ashtray has no regrets

You can’t take it with you

Don’t swallow before you chew

Have a glass

Chardonnay

Make it last, for the day

You can’t take it with you

Don’t swallow before you chew

With your head full of lines

And your heart on ice

This just may be

So don’t think twice

When loves needs a push

And push comes to shove

This just may be your chance

Don’t bust it up

Sit your ass next to me

Lose you mask just to see

What goes on under there

In the depths beneath your hair?

Take take a step take a leap and then

Walk walk with pride take a ride

Take a side…

Mamma's Jam

Pain is on the outside

You will not let it in

Waving from the window

Freezing from the wind

Yeah, crying at the rainbows

You lock the door again

Yeah its freezing, but you will not let it in

Running for the border

Racing with the flag

Living like a hoarder

‘cept you can’t afford a rag

You got nickles buried under

Mamma’s pickle jar

Yeah you’re running but you will not get to far

Mamma’s up the river

Daddy’s in a jar

She said she might get out some day

Then she’ll buy a car

Head out to the country

Forget about the day

Daddy tried to hit her and she blew his ass away

Daddy tried to hit her and she blew his ass away

Worlds Collide

Making you stay

These glory days

Why do they have to end?

With you my friend

Making your way

The older I get

the harder I fit

Keeping it

Saving face

Keeping pace

Making the grade

Its funny how worlds collide

Taking it all in stride

Seemingly satisfied with this divide

From that first day

Deep in the Lake

Why did it have to end

With  you my friend

Floating away…?

The highest of highs, we’d improvise

High fives and fights like this

On Nights like this

I long for that day

Its funny how worlds collide

Taking it all in stride

Seemingly satisfied with this divide

She Waits

Have faith, promises were made

You just take… care and behave

You left and now you are saved

The path it walks you away

Meanwhile, The house is empty

The floors lay, naked and weary

The walls barely hanging on, carry on

And she waits for you

Last night you left like a bird

Fly away and never be heard

The wind is cold and absurd

But man, you gave her your word

She can’t hear anything they’re saying

She can’t believe what is true

It doesn’t make sense what they’re saying

She can’t see anyone but you

Little girl hold on and wait

Its not fair but fairness is overrated

Wait and you will be saved

The path it walks him this way

January

You walk around for days

Deep inside your haze

You catch an off off broadway play

A matinee

You lick the sugar for the cane

Kiss the hippie for his face

Feel the breeze rush through your nose

And right into your heart

Lost my jacket,  January

Hold on to the cold, and let it ride

If you’re blood’s not up then you  aint dancin

Standing only works when you’re in line

Stop to ice my shoe

With glue

The string snapped long ago

With the radio

Where I listen to the sound of a million people

Swinging to the beat of their own egos

Sticking with the plan that they learned in the steeple

Where god is good and sin is evil

Clap your hands clap your hands clap your hands clap your

Grab the van

Trust your man

There’s a plan, there’s a plan, there’s a plan…

Gamma Ray

They say that nothing in our lives is free

Keeps me runnin’

Then they tell me that my saving grace

Is I look so stunnin’

I could indulge all the evil ways

My mind is going

Then I’m  liable for the human race

Keeps me running

Look so stunning

Soaking up the Gamma Rays

Preparing for an early grave

Gotta do somethin’

Dry food will be fun to consume

Won’t it be something?

And then I’ll illustrate my great escape

If the end is coming

2012 so the Mayans say

It keeps us running

Keeps us sunning

Soaking up the Gamma rays

There’s a thought that

When it does come

The flood will set us free

But we don’t know

Help we don’t know anything

It’ll take a lot lot more than that

To set us free

They say that nothing in our lives is free

Keeps me runnin’

Then they tell me that my saving grace

Is I look so stunnin’

Keep on sunning

Soaking up the Gamma Rays

But It’ll take a lot lot more than that

To set us free

Be Me

This house is a mess

I’m in the neighborhood of loneliness

Riding a wave

We all survive to make some sense of this

Living alone

Even when you’re right here next to me

Seeking to show

 I’m not a dime store refugee

And it feels so good right now

Could it be so good right now?

Now I gotta problem with electricity

What if it blows

And I lose what I have come to be?

How will I know

What my life has had in store for me?

How well I know

I’m just a shot away, just a shot away

And it feels so good right now

It feels so good right now

How could something so good

Be so bad for you?

And it feels so good right now

Could it be this good right now?

Wave

We could wait until tomorrow

If we can get through today,

If you lead then I will follow

If you think you know the way

There’s a problem down at will call

Cause you weren’t on the list

I try to comfort you, that’s my fault

I’m a plus one and I’m pissed

And if you think that I can save you

Then I’m throwing you the rope

But I’m up against the wave

Give me something to believe in

Cause I’m shoring up on hope

And I’m up against a wave

The odds are up against you

The damage has been done

But I really do like our chances

Aw baby I got a hunch

We could wait until tomorrow

If we could get through today,

If you lead then I will follow

If you think you know the way

Past Perfect

God we look so

So in the know

So in the moment

It’s there

And that’s all we care

But now

Its taking all I can muster

Just to wake up, all pale and flustered

The cards been folded , I busted

The plates are stacked and the shelves aren’t dusted

Taking me back

A picture on my lap

A dedicated slap on the back

Congratulations

And now

Its taken all I can muster

Just to wake up all pale and flustered

The cards been folded I busted

The plates are stacked and the shelves are dusted

This faint nostalgia cannot be trusted

Take it back (my past)

Every little picture shows a place

Better than the last one

Every smile it hurts me just the same

Cause I’m sad for all the lost songs

Frame it cause it hides the jagged edge

Better than the last one

Put it in the front to block the ledge

Always just smiles

Always for the lense

Always for your friends

Always for their sake