The Company

I miss all of my shit tonight

I miss those city lights

The mirrored powder room

The heart your sister drew

The sour lemonade

At 50 cents— we overpaid

Most of all, it’s the company

It’s not that check you sent me

Or the way you made me

It’s not the photograph

Tucked away behind a map

It’s not the days you didn’t call

Or the many ways you watched me fall

Most of all, it’s the company

Do do do do do do do

Do do do do do do do

It’s not the look you never give

Or that night we said we were positive

But I can let it be

The river flows in front of me

So I row on aimlessly

Mystified and breaking free

Memories set my heart on fire

When we were kids

To admire

The beautiful banks

The giving trees

The circus freak I seem to be

The razor sharp wit riding me

The anger people rarely see

The trials and hypocrisy

But all I ever really need is a

Hand to hold and a place to be

But most of all, it’s the company

Most of all, I miss the company

Another Fool

There’s a hole in the road

And a coat on the hole

There’s a flag changing hands

And a man with no master plan

Maybe there’s a place where

I’m just another fool

Maybe I’m a lot like you

There’s a stitch in my head

And a twitch in the thread

There’s a hitch in my step

When the light isn’t left on red

Maybe there’s a place where

I’m just another fool

Maybe I’m a lot like you

When the days are long

And the night’s all wrong

There you are in my periphery

You come to me

There’s a stall in my plan

And a cut on my hand

There’s a break in my heart

Come and take me where ever you are

Maybe there’s a place where

I’m just another fool

And maybe I’m a lot like you

Maybe I’m a lot like you

Yeah maybe I’m a lot like you

Too Far Away

I sometimes miss you most

When you are sitting here with me

Sometimes separation is the answer

Absence makes the heart grow harder

Each and every day

Now I want you back

But you’re so far away

And we’re running out of time

There’s a lot I want to say

If I could say the things I want

I’d be a famous poet

The rhymes escape me

When you are around

I try to turn back what’s been done

And find you where I left you

Now I want you back

But you’re so far away

And I’m running out of time

There’s a lot I wanna say

And it’s playin on my mind

But if luck won’t save me

I won’t go all in

I’ll take one on the chin

But you, you gave me all you had when you were here

And now, you are in a better place than me

Unchained, rising up to be the better you

Than I knew

Pulling up the wires

I find the sadness mixes nicely

With a glass of Great Aunt Sarah’s gin

Lengthening the shades

I look out to the vibrant distance

Now I want you back

But you’re so far away

And I’m running out of time

There’s a lot I wanna say

And it’s playin on my mind

And I wish that you stay

Now the sun begins to shine

But i’m headed for the shade

And I’m holding on the line

But if this is our time

Let us go in kind

Live our lives as if our lives depended on it

Take the night by hand

Be your favorite band

Take me into you

See if it is true

Now I lay you down

Buried in the ground

But I carry on

Because I must be strong

Present Time

Headed down to the country store

With a head full of bumble bees

Got a date with a magistrate

In the garden of the Tuileries

Got lost in the candy mart

Had to call for a helping hand

There’s a map leading to my heart

Or there’s room for another friend

But it’s either not both

Ain’t no more room on this boat

And there’s one way to my soul

it’s a long walk back from Buffalo

It’s hard highs and tricky lows

But there aint no time like the present time

Got stuck in the veggie aisle

Had a hiccup in my junior mint

Had to put back my celery

And hang on to my government

Don’t believe everything that you read

Said the cover of the magazine

Had to pause while I did the math

Had to take a shot of Listerine

And there’s one way to my soul

it’s a long walk back from Buffalo

It’s hard highs wand tricky lows

But there aint no time like the present time

Moving on with my eager eye

Make a motion for summary

Take a look at my brothers way 

Gonna live my life accordingly

Got a pillow for my good side

And a little bit of ambien

Gonna sleep off this cozy ride

Set the soundtrack to ambient

Blame me or don’t’

I got back to carry this load

And there’s one way to my soul

It's a long walk back from Buffalo

It’s hard highs and tricky lows

But there ain’t no time like the present time

Change The Locks

Enter bleeding,

Took quite a beating,

Chin on the floor

Heaven sent the relevant knock on the door

Thank you for being here

There’s a lot of options I know and you weathered the storm

This dorm

It’s driving me crazy

Will you come take me back or

Did you change the locks on the door?

If there’s a gun to my head

Would you turn and leave me for dead?

Will you come take me back or

Will you change the locks…?

Wristband don’t make the man, stamp on the hand

Check me in, don’t waste the pen, I’d much rather stand

Thank you for being here

We only have a minute, just sit and visit, cry if you can

This plan

Is driving me crazy

Amazing

I know that one of these days bad habits will kill me

But sooner or later we all must pay our debts

No ones immune to their maker no matter how sorry

No matter how safe

No matter how lucky you are the landlord needs the rent

But as I lay in my hospital bed

Theres not a moment I regret 

Take me to your leader

Put me in my place

With a little smoke and mirrors

And a little bit of fate

I’m the captain

Of my story

But I’m looking for a mate

Rescued from the needle give me just a taste

Of your amazing grace

I often think of my life as one big movie

A 2 buck matinee or one of the greats

The main character is just so captivating

I just worry I’m the only one in the seats

But as the final credits start to fade

I woudn’t take back a single frame

Take me to your leader

Put me in my place

With a little smoke and mirrors

And a little bit of fate

I’m the captain

Of my story

But I’m looking for a mate

Rescued from the needle give me just a taste

Of your amazing grace

I need you by my side 

I need you this morning

Wrapped tight in a web of blankets and strawberry sheet

We both know in truth we both probably be working

Nose holding tight to the lap top like dogs on a leash

But hold me baby hold me tight

The car is racing the road is flying bye

Take me to your leader

Put me in my place

With a little smoke and mirrors

And a little bit of fate

I’m the captain

Of my story

But I’m looking for a mate

Rescued from the needle give me just a taste

Of your amazing grace

Taxi Driver

She was a girl from my dream

Long gone vision got me nervous and weak

I lost a night from the sleep

Gonna make it up sugar if you bring the heat 

This ain't no magic carpet ride 

Oh girl you drive me wild 

You know my weakness is red

Maybe that's a fact better left unsaid 

I raise the flag to its peak

Better buckle up baby cause it's time to leave

This ain't no magic carpet ride 

Oh girl you drive me wild 

Now I gotta deal with a burning desire 

I got grand designs like a fire inside

And all I ever meant  to do was get to point B yeah

But keep the meter running there ain't nothing for free

This ain't no magic carpet ride

This ain't your daddy's voodoo child 

Oh girl you drive me wild 

You drive me wild wild wild wild wild yeah

Over Before It Began

Overwhelmed and under paid

Dreams are cast on better days

Lady please lady lay lay -- right down on me

And I will make you promises

Don’t know that I can keep

At the end of the day

It don’t matter either way…

If you’re gonna put a gun to my head

I’ve give you straight talk mister 

But you’re wasting your lead

I got opinions that I keep to myself 

I was a straight A student 

Cause I studied like hell

I look around me I see cracks in the street

But it don’t’ stop the people here

From moving their feet

Memorized and paralyzed

Mistakes were made, but been revised

I run to look busy,--you wonder what I do---do you?

The truth is I don’t know but I hope to soon

At the end of the day

It don’t matter either way…

If you’re gonna put a gun to my head

I’ve give you straight talk mister 

But you’re wasting your lead

I got opinions that I keep to myself 

I was a straight A student 

Cause I studied like hell

I look around me I see cracks in the street

But it don’t’ stop the people here

From moving their feet

And it’s over 

Before it began

If you’re gonna put a gun to my head

I’ve give you straight talk mister 

But you’re wasting your lead

I got opinions that I keep to myself 

I was a straight A student 

Cause I studied like hell

I look around me I see cracks in the street

But it don’t’ stop the people here

From moving their feet

Leg Up

There's  a crowd when I reach the lot,

I think somebody had finally tipped the cops

Fires are burning, somebody screams

And now we got a scene

But still you move right in

The pot boils over, an unwatched stove

A knife is hiding, by the open window

Smoke alarm evokes distress

And you Close your eyes

Let go of the hurt inside

You got a leg up

You’re moving backwards

Out of luck

Odds are stacked against you

Add it up, Use my calculator

Chalk it up , to your lack of A motivator

Just hear me out

I’ve got some tricks of my sleeve

Believe me

In the house that you almost lost

You say it’s lack of money, but at what cost?

You put your arms around and pull me in

What a tool I am

What a fool I been

The sky is so beautiful

The way it slips and slides

There’s a secret in the night

There’s a secret…listen

Hold the feeling and the feeling gets lame

I’m frank bout the story but not about the pain

I know its my fault if there’s someone to blame

But I close my eyes

To let go of the hurt inside

You got a leg up

You’re moving backwards

Out of luck

Odds are stacked against you

Add it up, Use my calculator

Chalk it up , to your lack of A motivator

Just hear me out

I’ve got some tricks of my sleeve

Believe Me 

Roll Me Over

Girl you come and say my name you come and anything

Anything you say I melt for you

When you stare in to my eyes, you give me exercise

All the pain and lies, I follow you

You’re the choir and the church

I got thoughts that break away

They beg to stay

Like heart attack

Right behind my back

Love is more than just a push

It’s a thrust

It’s a shove me down

Roll me over

When it’s over

They say/ that winter’s just begun

The clouds have shot the sun

It’s bleeding in a shade of overcast

But I /got warmth inside my coat

Soiling all my oats

A cord is pulling steadily at my throat

You’re the executioner

I got thoughts that break away

They beg to stay

Like heart attack

Right behind my back

Love is more than just a push

It’s a thrust

It’s a shove me down

Roll me over

When it’s over

Girl you come and pull me in, you come and tuck me in

Tuck me and say you’ll dream with me

You, you stay like apple pie, you stain like Cali wine

Say the word and I will follow you

Your gates are open wide

I got thoughts that break away

They beg to stay

Like heart attack

Right behind my back

Love is more than just a push

It’s a thrust

It’s a shove me down

Roll me over

When it’s over

When it's over

Roll me over

Fair

God damn this affair

It's taken me there

It’s taken away

A life of you

My vows gone astray

Just for today

Heart so betrayed

Once tried and true

This house is a home

But I’m always alone

I always atone

But my sins aren’t real

If I'm wrong then your gone

If I carry it on

If I write it in song

Will my heart still heal?

Love isn't fair 

Because I'm already there

What you put me through

Won't you Get me thru

Mountains of broken deals

Nipping at my heals

Ripping at the seals

Oh how do I feel?

Can we just wait and see

You be you and I, me

You be true and I’ll see…

If it gets me through

And you

Love isn't fair 

Because I'm already there

I can't stand

Why you  yeah yeah

What you put me through

Hearts in despair

This Is How

Remember that time

We fell in love

I kind of reached my limit

When push came to shove

One foot on the target

One foot on the rails

Making you the marker

I set myself up to fail

This is How your story is unfolding.

Try to grab ahold and slow it down

I find my voice and scream it from the rooftops

This is how

When the light is red

I feel blue

I reached my quota

Of dealing with you

One foot on the carpet

One foot on the wood

Making like a bandit

Ducking out, just like I knew you would

This is how your story is unfolding.

Try to grab ahold and slow it down

Here and now the sun is also rising

Day in and out, it offers no relief

I find my voice and sing it from the rooftops

I stand up tall and slowly take a bow

This is How

Hey hey hey…hey hey HOW.

Night Light

Do you have some place where I can put down this load

It’s full of my feelings and its about to explode

Walked a hundred miles with not a thing on my toes

Lately I been looking for a friendlier road

A place on a lake with dock and a boat

Nothing I fear more than the fear of being alone

Tonight

Let’s find

A fire

To light

The sky

Sock puppet Saturday, strangling socks

Think I’ll bite the bullet and change all the locks

Looking for some meaning in errands and jobs

Got an empty chalkboard and a handful of chalk

Got an empty cupboard and a sink full of rocks

Got a lot of words but I can’t seem to talk

Tonight

We’ll find

A fire

To light

The sky

Alive

Never seen such a gathering of friendlies and foes

Got me feeling high at the same time feeling  low

Came in thru the front door gonna leave by window

So reach into your pocket and grab your little phone

Take a picture text it and I’ll post it to show

All the other people that this moment was so

Alright

Lets find

A fire

To light

The sky

Alive

Juliet

The clock is ticking like the pigeons peck the stairs at the park

Your hands are shaking but you’re breaking from the crack in your heart

You ring your hands and straighten your gown

You pray to god that your parents sleep through the sound

There’s a nightlight screaming at you

The window’s open and the wind is rushing through

You set your eyes on the dark of the night

There’s a comet and it’s flame is burning bright

It’s getting late and he’s run-ning-out-of-time

A noise awakens and the dog next door lets it be known

Cacophony of barking takes a somewhat ominous tone

You brace your fingers and summon your might

Get on the floor and do your best to stay out of sight

The sound of pebbles break the threshold and make piles in your room

Another level hits the treble of your sonic boom

You steal your courage and your steal your pride

You steal your innocence when you accepted the ride

There’s a nightlight screaming at you

The window’s open and the wind is rushing through

You got a love and it’s way overdue

You got a poison burning deep inside of you

There’s a lick and it’s sticking like glue

Apothecary only you unlock the clue

You set your eyes on the dark of the night

There’s a comet and it’s flame is burning bright

It’s getting late and he’s run-ning-out-of-time

Numb

Oooh, ooh, ooh, ooh

I heard it when you said you were leaving

You tore the band aide off and its bleeding

My tongue is in my teeth cause I’m seething

My head spinning into space cause I’m reeling

And its hard to think

Cause you pushed me to the brink

And I’m trying to blink

But I’m numb

My bed is at my head cause I’m kneeling

Lord please I’m on my knees cause I’m praying

I’ve never asked for much, I’m just saying

Just roll into my soul  I’m not faking

And its hard to think

Cause you pushed me to the brink

And I’m trying to blink

But I’m numb

Reunion

There is just one bottle left to open

The others never made it through the week

The lip is cold the body nearly frozen

So take a drink

Adhere yourself be patient and cross legged

Let me breath you in, resuscitate

Let me take your hands and say remember

Yesterday…

Baby/there’s no denyin

I’m still alive/And I’m still trying

Hold you close late at night

While we reunite

You look the same, I know you’re getting older

But god has been kind to your pretty face

Sometimes I like to think I never met you

Then it stings much less when you’re away

You squeeze my hand and tell me to be stronger

Can’t help but be embarrassed when you say

You always have to tell me to be someone

Be someone, be someone

Baby/there’s no denyin

I’m still alive/And I’m still trying

Hold you close late at night

When we reunite

Just you stop your crying

Look at me I’m holding tight

Hold you close late at night

While we Reunite

Deep when we’re alone

Deeper in my life

Lucky

I locked the keys inside again/Oh well

I might be back on top again/Cant tell

I thought I’d sent bad karma back/To hell

For now I wait on Triple A /Oh well

But that’s the trick

That did you in

You let it spin and you got

Locked up, just trying to do your job and

Get right

Lock eyes, grab my hand and hold

It tight

Different face same place, day

Or night

You come and rescue me from

This fight

But that’s the clown

That got you round

You doubled down

And you got lucky

It’s strange what’s shaking lots of us

Around

The time is flying by without

A sound

We plead to let us play the game

Year round

But the rules are changing constantly

Fall out

Late at night I swallow love

hold tight

I wonder if there’s a better way to

Get it right

Does happiness lie in my fist

If I fight

Or am I standing staring at a

Green light

But that’s the tear

That got you here

You played with fear

And you got lucky

Cool If I Come Over

Ain’t it strange the way your mind works

Checks and balancing your day

You got it all inside that fat purse

It don’t fit but you shove it in there anyway

I been looking for you, looking for me

Your show is almost over

And you’re stuck in your seat

Here we go

I been holding out, cause you’re holding the key

Is it cool if I come over

And see if you’re into me

I conjure up your morning routine

Loud alarm that sounds your day

I know it involves a bit of sun cream

And a mask to keep the wolves at bay

I been looking for you, looking for me

Your show is almost over

And you’re stuck in your seat

Here we go

I been holding out, cause you’re holding the key

Is it cool if I come over

And see if you’re into me

Feelin lame

I hope you’re game

I’m insane

But I can change

Let it lay

Put it in play

I want to say

I want to stay….

I bet you got a lot of house cats

The landlord charges you a fee

A stack of magazines that say that you want that

The one thing missing there is me….

I been looking for you, looking for me

Your show is almost over

Gotta wait another week

Here we go

I been holding out, cause you’re holding the key

Is it cool if I come over

And see if you’re into me

Hot Times

Hot times in the 70s

Drugs are your friends and your enemies 

You’re sober

Then its over

Hold close all your vanities

Swallow the obscenities

No room for them

To make amends

But can you hold it

In the palm of your hand

break it down

and make it understand

Grip it tight

like a marker in the sand

type it up

like you’ve got a plan

fake the tell

you got the winning hand

hold your ground

like a marker in the sand

Hot trial of the century

a little piece of history

you always lose

when you’re on the news

it’s your biography

all about you when you’re the lead

fall over

then its over

Big One

Where have you been debutante?

Your eyes are painted shut

The culprit is the glossy wand

 You used when you made up

That pretty face ,

replaced something

Knuckles buried deep within

The grip of a six pack

The ice reminds you of the very urge your pushing back

There’s a burning but you need it so

There’s a raincloud and its heading back my way

There’s a valley where they’re giving out heartbreak

I’m on high ground  but I tell you I’m sliding down

And here I am just watching all

The walkers and their dogs

Hiding in plain sight like a good sentry of the smog

Invisible to only those who see, me

There’s a raincloud and its heading back my way

There’s a valley where they’re giving out heartbreak

Intoxicated, cause I’m thinking about her face

And its quiet when the big one starts to quake

And its quiet, when the big one starts to shake

Its all quiet when the big one starts to shake